Female to Male in the future..

I know the title probably scares you quite a bit but.. that's what I'm thinking of doing when I get the money though.. I am just SO sick and tired of just being a woman in general guys.. I also can't keep My mind off Guys either.. In a more Gay way though~ Like I keep getting these dreams (Sexual and Horny dreams) That I was a guy already and I had My Very Dominate and Possessive partner that was fucking Hard and rough! >/////./////< My God I'm fucking Dying over here!!!!! ;__;' 

but the problem is mostly is about this is my parents.. I already told my mom and she's telling me I'm crazy and it's a stupid idea.. -_-'
I Can't tell my dad about Any of this right now... since he's such a Homophobic and Yaoi/gay hater.. >_> (Makes me sick just thinking about it and talking about it) DX 

So I rather talk to my doctor about this instead of them.. and I know it's pricey and a BIG step to take.. I'm Ready to Change~!

To be honest... I Don't care what anything my dad says and thinks. It's My choice, My Body and I wanna Change !!! ^-^

I'm Gay for men in All My sexual dreams as a I man ~!~ I Really REALLY wanna be a man.. 

But I heard that Female to Male is more risky than male to female I read yesterday... ._.' I don't know if I should be worried about that...

Could Anybody help me? or anything? I'm Not getting the Best support... and I'm getting Disrespected as fuck here.. ;__; 
I just want want some Love right now.....